What if we all had really ugly letterboxes?
Today I was assigned an important task by my husband. I have been asked to research letterboxes to purchase.
Because we have an embarrassing letterbox.
A letterbox is a box… for letters.
Who am I kidding? A letterbox is a defining statement of our worth on the posessioness ladder, a metaphoric finger at your neighbours, my letter box is bigger than yours, a phallic symbol of our success and enormous wealth. DO YOU KNOW HOW IMPORATNT MY MAIL IS?
Our embarrassing letterbox is clearly a bit of a weakling, a bit scrawny, somewhat flaccid.
I find myself apologising for it. Boring people senseless with my bashful banter about our silly letterbox *shrill stick poke in the eye level of annoying giggles*.
Please, don’t think we chose this letterbox, or that we can’t afford a better one.
Lord have mercy.
It is a box, it functions perfectly, it stores letters which I retrieve.
So why the angst?
How can a box on my front lawn designed to collect my Telstra bill and annoying real estate magnets (does ANYONE put them on their fridge?) cause me angst? How did this box become a defining statement of worth for me and my family?
Because that’s just how fucked up I am.
I am seduced. Somehow, my brain is so conditioned, so covered in layers and layers of wealth filth and deception that I allow myself to be seduced by a letterbox.
I need a perfect letterbox.
And that’s just the tip of the iceberg isn’t it?
Guess what. It’s a lie.
I don’t need a perfect letterbox.
But guess what else? I need help, I need help to not need a perfect letterbox.
Because that’s how strong the pull is, the deception, the slimy clever evil one will use anything at his disposal, even a freaking letterbox, to keep me from finding that there is freedom to be had.
I am so fallen, so broken, so sold into the lie, that I would think for one nanosecond that anything, that any possession here on earth could come close to the majesty of Christ, and the freedom to be found in following him.
1 Chronicles 29:11 New International Version (NIV)
Yours, Lord, is the greatness and the power and the glory and the majesty and the splendour, for everything in heaven and earth is yours. Yours, Lord, is the kingdom; you are exalted as head over all.
And here I am, clinging to my letterbox like a spoilt brat.
Rebel I say.
Be brave. Let go. Repent. Give it ALL to him.
I was going to smartly say in all my smarty smart smartness to save your gold letterbox for heaven ready for letters from Paul. But guess what? I reckon heaven will be full of ugly letterboxes, cos we will be too busy living in freedom to care.
Ps. I NEVER swear in real life! I tried and tried to replace that word but the creative in me just knew it wouldn’t be strong enough, and still the nerd in me must apologise – soz.